Lately I feel surrounded with sadness. There is lots going on in the world. Grief, despair, abuse disconnect.
I have been affected the last while with the death of a close friend & a cousin, divorce in our family and a random act of violence just down the street from our house this past weekend.
It is amazing what a neighborhood tragedy can do to your sense of safety. I drive the neighborhood 100 times a day. My kids ride their bikes up and down the sidewalk. I go running all around the neighborhood several times a week. We socialize with our neighbors, BBQ, lunch together, but in one random act of violence your whole safe world can collapse.
It seems the same with marriage. Jason and I have been married for almost 17 years. I love the man to death. He knows me. He gets me. He can figure out my mood within 2 minutes of coming into the house. He drops everything, just to make my life easier. We laugh, cry and share our lives together. But when someone you love gets divorced it makes you look a little deeper into your own marriage. It makes you not take all those amazing things that your spouse does for you for granted.
Our High School friend died last fall of cancer and my cousin just died of cancer a few weeks ago. When I think of their kids, wife and parents going through life without them I hug my kids a little tighter and squeeze Jason a little longer each night.
With all this sadness going on around me. I am also surrounded with amazing happiness. I am filled with HOPE. I am filled with gratitude.
I have thought today of my Grandmothers and all the sadness that they saw in their life time. The depression, loss of children, siblings, disease, hardship and much more than I can possibly imagine. Both of my grandmothers were strong. They had a strong sense of family. They built a legacy. I am proud to be from such an amazing heritage of women. I am glad now, in this sad time of my life that I can look to their examples. They acted not re-acted. Women that stood up for what they believed. Woman who raised large families and took pride in doing so. Women who served those who needed service. Loved those who needed love, and found happiness in a world sometimes filled with sadness.
To my amazing Grandmother's.......who are no longer with us.
Thanks for your example.
3 comments:
My heart goes out to you Sara. Know that you are loved and doing an amazing job raising your kids! Grandma Creer was an amazing women! If we can only strive to be as strong as she was! Keep going and the happiness is there...Love you.
Sara! this is beautiful! You are an amazing woman and you are building that legacy for your own children. I have always looked up to you and your sense of self and love of family. You have got it together and have your priorities straight. xoxo Katie
Sara, I have felt this way many times too. I look at the hardships that are happening around me and am so filled with gratitude for the blessings that I have. My family, my health, my job, my marriage...all those same things that you mentioned. I sometimes think that the hardships of others would be in vain if we didn't take time to stop and be thankful for the blessings that we have been given.
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